looking at me while I was eating or was it just a coincidence me catching you do so and when you gave me a little smile which did not seem little at all? Do you do that with everyone and I am just another stupid one to fall for that? Really, it makes me feel so very warm inside. I want that more often, and again. Please call me, or text me, and text me.
of yours. Floors me as your voice does. However, this is just for me. Do what you want, it will not affect me unless I let it, unless I let you. It is just for me, I won’t tell anyone because it just belongs to me, with me. Like to think about that so very cute smirk of yours all of the time, keeps me going, makes me feel warm and cosy and comfortable inside. Since it is inside no one will know. Admittingly, I kind of adored the way you were trying to analyse me and to figure me out. Or, were you pretending to do so? There are things I do not get at all over there but I will take care of that, me. No worries, lol.
So, weekend. My time. Love yoy. Miss you. May I tell this to the world out loud, please? Note: once it is ok with someone he’ll be the right one.
Want to have this feeling forever. Feels as if I just cannot handle more than one person or even a situation which exceeds the amount of one at once. Too overwhelming. Overwhelming. He, give me a hug please. Need you.
Realising I am stronger, always have been, than I thought before. I am already ok the way I am, or was, have been inbetween.
Want to be swept away. Admitted! And with that one person, him, who’s going to do that, I will let him. Will let him do things as long as we do them together because I want to be with him. Always. Locally or not.
Now, nothing, so much, he’s just refusing to reply, answer my questions. Does he want me?
Tired. Go out more. Want to see him, hear his voice. Just missing him.
to #sayno more better or more effectively. No means no why are people trying afterwards anyways? Why are they forcing me to do things I don’t want, can’t afford in several ways, or, aren’t good? Even against my will.
Don’t play stupid, don’t be stupid, not buying it any longer. Can’t. Feel so tired. Powerless. No energy, drained, battery-drained.
Please go away, leave me alone.
In fact, go away. No pleasing any longer.
I had a nightmare and I am very sure, I know, it somehow included you. It wasn’t nice and I did not even care to try and stay asleep to make it work and sort out to be all good. I just opened my eyes as usually this wakes me up and frees me from the dreams I have. And when closing my eyes again it almost never works to get back to the dream before.
About what was the dream? Can’t remember any longer, now. It was awful and it terrified me. You didn’t get back to me all day yesterday. Freaked me out.
Am I sorry for the plans I have, no, because I want someone caring who is loyal to me. Screw trust, which is just a bi-product of everything else, but going for loyalty, just as love.
It is #love, #loyalty, #trust.
They are wrong no news does not mean good news instead it means just procrastinated news. As in a love relationship, people have to talk to each other else the relationship is going to end and the news always end with a bomb or nut cracked open in a disastrous way eventually.
I thought we could be friends. Like I said, or talked out to me I give him all of me, my heart, mind, body, and soul. I am loyal to you but if you are not to me then I do not see the point because I do not want to be used by others to get ahead. His voice, it is just that, it floors me.
It is possible I am at the point right now that showing some intimacy and having some with him will be a real push. I love him, yes, I want to do e’thing for him, yes too, I want to be close to him.
Or, I just want to find a reason and it’ll make things easier. Also, however, it is very much certain that driving 600k within three days and sleeping in the car during the nights is exhausting, should be awake when taking such routes, shouldn’t I? For safety reasons.
Well, on the other hand they say if he truly loves me back and wants to be my, a friend then he isn’t leaving as in disappearing from my life.
‘Thinking is talking to oneself.’ (Some philosopher from ancient times.)
Well if he thinks that fuck off, fuck off all of you and fyi disclosing information to another party without one’s prior consent AKA forwarding is not ok! Get that? Do they even understand and get it into their stupid heads, just stupid? Just fuck off like people before him just go with your fucked up under-person or whichever and I do not want people hanging with shit like that anyways? Why? It is because they are full of shit. If you want to be with shit well fine and I do not want to be shit rotten people or those people who are near that shit.
So it is just that I thought you were different, you liked me, you asked me to #trust you but I guess if people want others to trust them they do not have to ask for it. As you did.
It is just, too, that I think you can be better, become better if you aren’t yet or will be at some point if there is something to change or #evolve. Am I probably stupid, possibly I wish you
#dontleaveme #youpromised
It is not very kind to let me all dry and whatever the other word is. Going out for dinner with friends? Awww so lovely if it was true. Well could be he is the good one and I am not but the one no one cares about or anything or to hang out with or to want to be close to. Hah! #possiblynot No. I’m ok, fine. I like being with people for who they are instead of for just not wanting to be alone.
Given his attraction could be he’s also likely to be around shallow pretentious people. Burns out later on eventually. Regretting he will not have been nicer to me and called me back, texted, left me voice mail, sent an email from him just to me? #stillloveyou #notoveruntil you know I have already lost a dear person in my life in childhood. Nothing like that, all goes a long way.
Just call!!
strong woman one wants to be heard only. #reminder
chasing you, if you want me fine. When you want me I am there. Always. You know why? Because I am loyal. Trust goes a long way, it needs to pass loyalty on its way. Once you have RECEIVED loyaly you are practically, almost there RECEIVING trust. But, if you are not even passing loyalty you will never make it to the trusting zone! Do not demand things like that as if it was nothing. It is likely you will never get it, anyways, by such good people where it means truth BUT you were not up to this, were you? #TruthBeTold.
So, reasons why I am not chasing you, there you go.
Too good for you
Better off without you
Better me be somewhere else
You just don’t get back to me or give me just very emotionless responses or replies
Why do you not call, write, text me, or leave me a voice mail? (Why did you not do that?) For me? Too much?
Too less.
Just a little bit and enough to show they are not abandoning as soon as anything. Just, it is very low on people whenever they back off once people got close, bound them close even.
Wow, bound oneself to another person. Same word stem as in having boundaries in all sorts of relationships. Why is it that there are seemingly many types of relationships? Makes it so very difficult, or potential to it. I just, so it is not wrong, never was, when I had and have different versions of me with different people, scenarios, situations. So, I was not wrong all along at all. People were so wrong! Wrongly blaming me fir the sh** they were doing. And, btw I am very well with healthy boundaries, establishing and protecting them.
Anyways, stick to me and show me, else risk losing me!!
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