Dec 2020 – iambeautifulaswell

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2020-12-31 emti1308

그 년:

• Got hit. Never have been hit. Shortly before, there was an outside ad, big one, against violence against people. Doesn’t apply to (me).

• Younger wide-eyed whatever told me to remove mask and come closer. Seemingly, unable to deal with not seeing entire face of people. Yes, that one was a public servant sort of worker. Sort of vowing to protect people. But. Doesn’t apply, too?

• Old fat person threatened me. Combination of the above, unable to deal with masks and willing to hurt people if they don’t apply.

• And, seemingly, “I am the one with the problem, problems. I am imagining it. And, if not, you’re (I am) wrong, it is my fault. And, if it isn’t, no one (they) don’t believe me. Also, they don’t care because they have their reasons, they have better things, there are more important things in the world.”

That said, the world turns around them. 집에 가려고 해요. 집에 가야 돼요. 집에 가야 해요.

강미라의 우리 가족과친구들에게: 새해 복 많이 받으세요.

Just a day. You’re imagining it.

그 날

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Be happy – lie.

It is not your fault – rumour.

You’re imagining it – general truth.

You sh%?* effoff why did you do it?

쉬웠 기 때문에 – 나와 함께?

나 없이 지금은 행봊 하지 않아요?

Iknewitdbelikethatbutnoonelistened

2020-12-26 emti1308

AndlaterorsoontheyllsayitsyourdecisionyoureresponsibleandoritsuptoyouorandonlyyoucandoitundoorfixorwhateverphrasesandwordstheyuseTHISTIME

#2020 다 싫어해요

Or, s’th like this.

피곤해요.

💔

Near-misses and you first’s

2020-12-26 emti1308

Life-motto, you first. Why arguing with the same sh# and who and if anyone gets it first, last, or, not all.

Or so, I thought, it appears.

Get it alike something one, sort of wants, must not be the same, too much competition and let others first (arguing) about it. Rather not worth the effort.

*Fought once for a friendship or so I have thought, wanted to keep being friends but distance moves ppl away and they betray you even more. Most ppl can’t do it, and, bec aren’t willing to. But, just in case, I’m waiting, still, probably —> always ALWAYS waiting.

Plan a, let’s “hope” it works, plan b, let’s “hope” plan a works. Or, s’th like that.

Light at end of tunnel that is not a train.

Being number # one in believing to be number # one.

끔

2020-12-24 emti1308

English supermarket, more like shop, Korean bed linen but prob for bed linen smaller. And Korean tea cup, more like to go plastic non-glass or ceramic lon cup, some with straw but all prob with lid

bus 30 mins was air conditioned freshest air had food buffet in it two cutest and awesome driver, bus attendant and were smiling. lots of rice, mix of kind of favorite green salad leaves, 김, by the time got to seat, others all distancing too, arrived at stop already, packed hurried and departed from bus.

stop was s where at original home 🏡 🏠 ❤️:

Then sort of snow and machines and cars for an outside season amusement park market thing were parked s where close by, was looking s where to go from down to up, asked ppl but seemed busy, or ignorant, was angry and continued myself, before finding it found a cute pullover or so or two and s how ended up in trying on dress also on hanger but wanted to switch later and first do what was intended, exch s thing, then the bus th

in between before was at store bec aus went to next next toilet bec distancing at work, on the way return or so the store.

some ppl on the way, said them they owe me, they don’t care. to one said twice merry christmas, h didn’t care, but twice, seemingly. Told them, too, that they do and what I thought and that. lol.

tbd to be added (might)