Just crap

Fake, superstitious, or, whichever the word, pretentious, just crap, stupid idiot lousy behavior. Just effoff, done it, seen it. And, I don’t believe ANY LONGER ANYMORE the shit you are trying to pull, no second-guessing, no guilt-tripping, have had it with you. Go the eff away from me now, you stupid idiot, idiots, go fool someone else, this – this right here is closed for you.

Done nothing wrong

It was always you, you were the one who were wrong. Bad day and yet they seem to expect shit. Just #effoff.

Always you and me

It is always you and me. Nothing’s going to change that. Respect that!

Experiment, what if no smiling for a year?

Anyone,

It is not true, never was, was it, is it? I feel corners of mouth going downwards, last Friday was awful, they are so stupid, so irrational. Simon was right, although what he did was part of the problem we all have but instead dealing with it in a way that’d allows him to enjoy, or secure whatever he’d need, no?

I just cannot stop thinking about it, it stays there, half-renormalization time, 1.5 days probably which is almost, entire weekend.

Lazy people ruin everything. Ruin it for e’one.

Miss my home, unsure where uhm what huh?

If only

If you thought you were ok doing things for people. Well btw you know I don’t know how to finish the sentence. Lost myself, not only can’t find it and can’t be even if I found something similar I wouldn’t push, go through because it just can’t be done.

It’s twisted, they twisted. The more time passes the more I understand, wait no, the more I see. People are cruel and selfish and stupid, the last one combined with the first one and second one is, are the worst.

If it comes down to it, at the bottom line, they blow me up or out as the evil “people” they are.

I’m stuck but I’m not sure. I want to believe that the four around me, nearby, more so five nearby are good, they’ll help me without them realizing. But, what if they detest me, what if. What if it’s all a lie, everything, in general? Just and it’s shattering up.

No, I don’t care for your whichever and yours and the thing of yours because you have never done. No, it is not resentfulness but it’s just by now I, for real, seem to not be able to trust. I did, although they said I didn’t, and I was excessively naive. And, “it was ok for them, sure, because it benefitted them”. Sure! lol. No, take care of your own children YOURSELF, YOURSELVES. Probably singular form because you even mess up living and being with another human-being. So why should you care for working on A good relationship, or LOTS of them in all areas, btw? #effoff #idiots

Done

Done, it’s horror. It’s shit. Can’t stand the shit, the I don’t care attitude, not how I WAS BUILT. Another 15 to 30 minutes, or 20, max, hold it together just a couple more minutes, then, you can get loose. However, effoff. Want home, miss home. My, mine, me, I. Me last. As always.

Hold

Why are ppl so rotten f*******ng bad? Seriously, I’m done with the w*rld. They’ve gotten nothing, furthermore, they SEEM to think they want me to preserve nature, Earth, and all that shi*****t FOR THEIR CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN. Seriously? First you treat me like dirt, then you want me to pay for your rotten-gone-bad whatever? Selfish bunch of crapshiteffoff.

Just. No.

 

Does he wait

To be with me. Feel weak. Feel need to be protected. I am strong but I am tired. Lost home. Want back my home. Not so many “nice” people any longer. Even so that “nice”, the word, lost all meaning. I believe and I work more or less hard I guess to built me up every week just so it seems I can be levelled back down again. Yes I want to keep the switching hour clock thing, it is a little bit of change within a certain amount of time, a year you idiots. So. You have one job and it is not even complicated changing the hours. It is even fairly regular, even on the same dates for some, if not, then it is fairly on the same day the weather, the sun, and the moon changes. According to their rhythm. Btw, your bodies know. Exactly. What the time is, and their changes. If you were truly self-confident you would notice. But, apparently, you are too self-absorbed and ignorant to notice.

Just want #needahug.

See

I do some things, I say some things, or just when I am considered of no value for them, they discard me, put me in a bin, every time. They just don’t care, no contact, no replies, no nothing, anything, well, not exactly, they have always tried to make me believe it was my fault. Which I believed, probably, before but that ship sailed. Also, making me second-guess me totally backfired on you as it turns out to make me second-guess you. You stupid idiots. Selfish and jealous is a crappy combination and that’s what you are. You aren’t confident but you are weak tailgating people because you are not able to get anything done. So you take it out on others, or so you try, or so until people realize how shittcrappy you are.

Noend

I did a mistake and I am tired.

However, it is all you to blame where it was you who did the mistake, lots of them. Me, strong and tired.